a silence a sway
a gesture a wild sashay
can make your today
and then take it all away
they made us this way
for what they can never say
sent us on our way
it's useless to make them pay

holding ground

"just live for today"
'least that's what they try and say
they say "pay, pay, pay
and we'll take your pain away

holding ground

so much for today
so much for the days of may
so much is passe
please just make it fade away

Cassandra Gemini

I.
1.Tarantism

I think I’ve become one of the others
I think I’ve become one of the others
I think I’ve become one of the others

2.Paint a Nail in the Navel Stream

There was a frail syrup dripping off his lap danced lapel
punctuated by her decrepit prowl
she washed down the hatching
Gizzard soft as a mane of needles
His orifice icicles hemorrhaged
By combing her torso to a pile
Perspired the trophy shelves made room for his collapse
She was a mink handjob in sarcophagus heels...

Bring me to my knees
Read the sharpened lines
All my arms
Bled me blind

Faucet leaks in shadows
Spilling from morgue lancet
Caressed your fontanelle

I've sworn to kill
Every last one
Every last one

Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms
Onto the floor
And out of your mouth
Out of your eyelids

No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches
No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches

All your dreams
splintered off
Leech by leech
On this catafalque

Anyone will tell you
Yes anyone
Chance had me setting a trip wire alarm

Your mother flirted with disease
When she skinned that costume by it’s navel strings

Panic in the shakes of the wounded
Panic in the worms
Onto the floor
And out of your mouth
Out of your eyelids

No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches
No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches
No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches
No there’s no light
In the darkest of your furthest reaches

Shockless shackles free you
Fools taste tongues
I better leave you again,
I won't be owned
Not this time

Shock lest shackles free you
Volt face cons
abandon you again
I won’t feel
not this time

II.
3.Faminepulse

Brick by brick
the night eclipsed
Pricked by cuticle thorns
Dried the sleep
on nursery slits
Into this life I’m born

Heaven's just a scab away
I'd like to see you after just one taste

Sink your teeth into the flesh of midnight
Night forever more
let them see it has begun
The others I’ve become

If you should see the dice
Charmed with it’s snaked choked eyes
You’ll wear the widows weeds
Because they’re just your size

Behind the snail secretion
Leaves a dry heave that absorbs
a limbless procreation
let the infant crawl deformed

A bag replace the breath
of these suffocating sheets
and now when the craving calls
I'll scratch my itchy teeth

And soon
Come on
if you don't know
Come on
if you don't know
Come on
if you don't know

Sink your teeth into the flesh
into the flesh of midnight
Night forever more
Sink your teeth into
the flesh of midnight
Night forever more

She fell for the whispers
Sister flooded deaf tears
that night tore a river
in her baron womb mirror

And his multiple sons
with their mandible tongues
set crucified fires to petrified homes
I want to let it burn
I want to let it burn...

And the owls they were watching
and the owls did't care
then the owls came a knocking
placentas in their stares

They will feed on all the carnage
leftover from the flood
and in the corner of their eyes
fled sister L'Via
sister L'Via...

Now the pieces went floating
reflecting all at dusk
conceived from the stabbing
was Vismund Cygnus

25 wives in the lake tonight...

slag pit, stag shit, honey, bring it close to my lips, yes.
don't... blow... those... brains... yet...
we gotta be big. we gotta be big, boy. we gotta be big...

starfucker, just like my daddy. said,
starfucker, just like my daddy, yes...

what is termed 'a landslide'?
said, what is termed 'a loving, loving...'?
what is termed 'a little girl trusting, a little boy trusting her'?
yes, said,

star fucker, just like my daddy.
star fucker, just like my daddy.
sellin' his baby,
sellin' his baby, said, just like my daddy, yeah.
sellin' his baby... sellin' his baby... sellin' me...
sellin' his baby... yeah...
what is loving you...? just like my daddy...
sellin' his baby...


said, mother mary, china white said,
"let it be. let it be. let it be."
give me peace, love, and a hard cock

"Oh my God! What a fabulous room! Are all these your guitars?
[Film in background: "I'm sorry sir, I didn't mean to startle you!]
"This place is bigger than our apartment!
[Film: "Let me know when you're entering a room"
"Yes sir!"]
"erm, Can I get a drink of water?
[Film: "I was wondering about ..."]
"You want some, huh?"
[Film: "Yes"]
"Oh wow, look at this tub? Do you wanna take baaaath?"
[Film: "I'll have to find out from Mrs. Bancroft what time she wants to meet us, for her main ..."]
"What are watching?"
[Film: "If you'll just let me know as soon as you can ... Mrs Bancroft" "Mrs Bancroft ..."]
"Hello?"
[Film: "I don't understand ..."]
"Are you feeling okay?..."

Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum.

Run to the bedroom,
In the suitcase on the left
You'll find my favorite axe.
Don't look so frightened
This is just a passing phase,
One of my bad days.
Would you like to watch T.V.?
Or get between the sheets?
Or contemplate the silent freeway?
Would you like something to eat?
Would you like to learn to fly?
Would'ya?
Would you like to see me try?

Would you like to call the cops?
Do you think it's time I stopped?
Why are you running away?


Ooooh, babe
Don't leave me now.
Don't say it's the end of the road.
Remember the flowers I sent.
I need you, babe
To put through the shredder
In front of my friends
Ooooh Babe.
Dont leave me now.
How could you go?
When you know how I need you
To beat to a pulp on a Saturday night
Ooooh Babe.
How could you treat me this way?
Running away.
I need you, Babe.
Why are you running away?
Oooooh Babe!

Goodbye cruel world,
I'm leaving you today.
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Goodbye.

Goodbye, all you people,
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind.
Goodbye.

something for the rag and bone man
over my dead body
something big is gonna happen
over my dead body
someone's son or someone’s daughter
over my dead body
this is how I end up sucked in
over my dead body

i’m gonna go to sleep
and let this wash all over me

we don't really want a monster taking over
tip toe around, tie him down
we don’t want the loonies takin’ over
tip toe around, tie him down

may pretty horses come to you as you sleep
i'm gonna go to sleep
and let this wash all over me

stalkerofursoul

attention 9 to 5 folk, cell-phone masses,
the up and coming classes.
attention sports-utility,
plastic-surgery suburbanites,
viagra-popping, gucci-shopping urbanites.
attention george-clooney loonies,
promise-keeper sheep,
stockbroker sleep-walkers,
big investment talkers,
ricki lake-watchers.
attention walmart congregation,
shop til you drop generation,
ATTENTION NATION!
AMERICA’S ON SALE!

We’ve unstocked the welfare pantry
to restock the wall street gentry
it’s economically elementary
because values don’t pay,
yes, american dreams are on permanent layaway!
(there was limited availability anyway)
the statue of liberty is being dismantled,
ten dollars a piece to sit on your mantle
or hang on your wall
by the small somalian child
you bought from sally struthers
sisters and brothers, it’s now or never,
these deals won’t last forever-
AMERICA’S ON SALE!
(restrictions may apply if you’re black, gay or female)

And shoppers!
global perspective is ninety-ninety percent off
cause most of the world don’t count to us.
our ethic inventory is low
because moral business has been slow,
the values-company is moving to mexico--
and ALL ETHICS MUST GO!

It’s a remote control America that’s on sale
because standing up for justice can’t compare
to clicking through it from a lazy chair--
Answer: jerry, montel, oprah
Question: folks who really care!
for a million dollars!
in this new mcveggie burger world order
where the mainstream scene has an alternative theme.
where national health care is one hundred percent off!
and medicare is in the fifty percent bin,
so you can buy--half an operation
when AMERICA’S ON SALE!
There’s a close-out bid to determine
which religion will win
all the neon flashing signs of sin.
the Christian Coalition is bidding high
shoppers, you ask WHY?!
who needs a higher power when you’ve got
the purchasing power
to corner and market
one human mold.
That’s right - Real family values
are being UNDERSOLD!!

And it’s open hunting season for the NRA!
there’s a special oozie discount-- only today!
Gun control?! We say--
Fuck it! Blow it all away!

Because inflation is up on the CEO ego
and power is deflated as far as we go:
Nike bought the revolution,
and law schools bought the constitution!
Tommy Hilfiger bought the red, white, and blue,
(a flag shirt for fifty dollars,
the one being burned is you!)
Marlboro bought what it means to be a man,
Lexus equals power- so get it while you can.
Maybelline bought beauty,
New York bought Rudy Guiliani,
Mastercard Gold bought the national soul
Broadway bought talent and called it CATS!
the Republicans bought out the Democrats-
they liquidated all asses in a fat white donkey sale-
now it’s buy one shmuck, get one shmuck free
in the capitalist party!
And there’s nothing left to get in the way
of a full blue-light blow-out
of the U.S. of A!
there’s a no-nothing back guarantee,
a zero-year warranty,
when you buy this land of the fritos, ruffles, lays..
this home of the braves, the chiefs, the reds, the slaves!
so call 1-800- i don’t care about shit
or www.FUCK ALL OF IT!
to receive your credit for the fate of our nation-
(call now! Interest is at an all-time low)

But hurry shoppers!
because america’s being downsized, citizens,
and you’re all fired.

i had some crazy dreams last night. the first one [the one i lovingly call the 6:30 in the morning dream] i was at some sort of reprogramming camp because i didn't love the virgin mary enough. a militeristic concentration camp like place with all these people shouting at you, telling you were scum and how you needed to love and worship mary more. weird.

second dream [which is the 11-12:30 dream] involved myself, doug, leslie, dan & beth, jessica and ashley playing a DnD like vampire game. except we were all walking around like it was real [live action] and we all thought it was real. think of willow. we're all scrambling around dirty, in failing armor, in a tim burton-esque dreamscape. we were fighting dragons and leslie kept finding all this armor that glowed green when she put it on. i don't know whether this dream was just a bunch of random subconscious things strewn together into a concept i am familiar with or what. hmmmm... maybe it has something to do with vision con coming up. ::shrug:: i am not sure.

for once this year i am not really prepared for vision con. i don't know who all is going, who is staying where or anything. i guess i better check on that.

humbled and helpless
learning to pray
praying for visions
to show me the way

show me the way to forgive you
allow me to let it go
allow me to be forgiven
show me the way to let go

show me the way to forgive you
allow me to let it go
allow me to be forgiven, and
show me the way to let go

illuminate me
i'm just praying
for you to show me
where I'm to begin
hoping to

reconnect to you
reconnect too

from here
no lines are
drawn

from here
no lands
are owned

13,000 and holding
swallowed
in the purring
of her engines
tracking the beakon
here
"is there a Signal
there
on the other side"

on the other side?

what do you mean side of what things?

and you said
and you did
and you said
you could find me
here
and you said you would
find me even in Death
and you said
and you said
You'd find me
but

i can't see New york
as i'm circling down
through white cloud
falling out
and
i know his lips
are warm
but i can't seem
to find my way out
my way out

i can't see New York
as i'm circling Down
through white cloud
falling out
and
i know his
lips are warm
but i can't
seem to find
my way out
my way out
of
this hunting ground

from here
crystal meth
In
metres of millions
In
the end
all we have,
soul blueprint.
did we get
lost in it
do we
conduct a
search
for this

"from the other side"

from the other side?

what do they mean side of what things...

and you said
and you did
and you said
you would find me
here and you said that you would
find me even in Death
and you said
and you said
You'd find me
but

i can't see New york
as i'm circling down
through white cloud
falling out
and
i know his lips
are warm
but i can't seem
to find my way out
my way out

i can't see New york
as i'm circling down
through white cloud
falling out
and
i know your lips
are warm
but i can't seem
to find my way
my way out
of your hunting ground

you again
it's you again
i can't see
i can't see
New york
i can't see
i can't see
New york
from the other side

i hum
from the other side

don't make me come to vegas
don't make me pull you out
of his bed
i am vigilant
that it will not be you
on the menu
he's serving up
for his friends

don't make me come to vegas
don't make me pull him out
of your head
athena will attest
that it could be done
and it has been done
and i think that i am
up to it

and the Jacaranda tree
is telling me of the
trouble you're in
just by the way
she bends
remember dancing and
wondering as you were swaying
what kind of woman you'd be
"what will be will be"
over my dead body

slip through your hand
again and again
slip through your hand
again and again

my old flame was a
jester and a joker
and a dealer of men
they called him the prince
the prince, Prince of black jacks and
of women and of anything
that slipped into his hands

"and the ranches and the mustangs"
and the way you said
"you can have all of this, except for me--
you see lady luck is my mistress and
you'll have to play second to her wish"

and the Jacaranda tree
is telling me
it's not over yet
just by the way
she bends

"if you come breezing through"
you said " i'll know that it's you
by the taste on my lips
bet on the desert's kiss"

i could slip
through your net
"over my dead body"

slip through your hand
again and again
slip through your hand
again and again

don't make me come to vegas
don't make me come to vegas
don't make me come to vegas
hmmm